Everything happens for a reason....right?

My mom's motto in life was always that everything happens for a reason..I suppose that was due to the fact that she went through so much heartbreak throughout her life and still managed to pull through it. I fully believed her, and still do, although it was tough to see that when she left me, but I do still think that everything does happen for a reason. Although at the time it is hard to understand why, I'm not sure we're always supposed to. With Thanksgiving coming near...this will be my third one without my mom. It is completely insane to me that I have lasted this long without her. Truth? I could have cared less in the first year if I got hit by a bus. I have never hurt that bad. But time does heal and life does go on. I'm here to write about it and I do feel as though life has a purpose, yet when life gets tough I wish she was here to help me out. I don't normally talk about her as much anymore..I'm not sure why...partly because it still sucks and partly because I feel as though others think its just "over and done with." Whatever the reason, this time of year brings her to the front and center of my mind.

My mom was the type of person that could make me (or anyone..my friends know this) feel better about anything. No matter what the problem I was having, I could call her and life would seem just a little bit better. I haven't found anyone (and I know I never will) like her. I am thankful for having her for as long as I did in my life. I'm thankful that she raised me to the be the person that I am today.

My job makes me realize and appreciate my mom and the rest of my family even more. I see these families not care about each other on a daily basis and it breaks my heart. Being a social worker is hard work. Sometimes you are punching bag and you are the person to blame for all the problems and I'm trying to remember not to take it home with me (which I clearly did today :( )

Alright this entry is way too sappy and lame. Real quick I'm also thankful for my friends and job and family and etc!!

Now....on another note I hate my cat...she is very smelly and gross and poops everywhere. Whoever wants her can have her!